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  崇基眾志堂前的荷花池，現在還有荷花嗎？ 今天是中文大學舉行畢業禮， 1977年我在此畢業，今天重遊，53年前中學畢業的同學，看了我的回憶錄，跟我聯絡，今天架車來接我和老公遊了一小時多，感激他，重遊中大，感覺相當複雜。 因為有車，我們看見前幾年社會運動時的二號橋，段校長跟警察和學生接觸的地點。現在兩旁已經被鐵網圍住了，有鉄刺的鐵絲網，像監獄的外牆。   眾志堂後面的草地，當年小女兒在學行，我扶著她上樓梯到這草地，跟四歲的姊姊跳舞，還有好朋友的女兒，三位小姐快樂的渡過一個上午。 今天這草地已經被這個東西霸佔了！ 原諒我，我雖支持環保，但這個空間如此使用，心裏很不舒服，嘆一句「舊事不須記」！ 還是在聯合書院飯堂吃一個雞蛋三文治加咖啡，$12，望着湯若望宿舍來得舒服，我50歲生日那天，老公和我在這飯堂慶祝，是離開香港十三年重踏校園那一天。今年70歲，見到住過的宿舍，需要時間觸摸這感受。 回憶至親身重遊，是一個什麼的旅程？ 回家google, 原來有「回憶文學」這詞，典範是琦君，馬上找到「橘子紅了」網上看。第二天，星期六的沙田新城市廣場找到圖書館的寧靜空間。

  Bee Bee is now 112 years old. Mr Kwong said. I saw this little dog walking alone. I asked two people around if they were the owner. Head shook. After 5 minutes following him/her, found this gentleman turning back, waiting with a little stroller. Poor Bee Bee, what happen to you left leg? “I adopted him when he was two years old from Humane Society . I have taken care of him for 14 years already. He used to love playing games, balls… but now too old. Just want to sleep.” Mr Kwong said. Though the left leg is not walking “normally”, Bee Bee still loves to walk. Mr Kwong let him walk, but watching closely. Spend quite a lot of money, eh? Oh, $1000 for one vaccine. He eats your food?  No salt. Boiled chicken breast. He has his own dog food as well. I saw a few people passing by come to pat Bee Bee. Old friends in Shing Mun River la! Mr Kwong and his wife are living in 博康邨 Pok Hong Estate which is next to 沙田圍村 Sha Tin Wai Village, my previous home before I left Hong Kong in 1991....

  首要到洗手間報到，10 人排隊等候，舉頭望，發現你倍伴。 又有 禮物 gift Washroom visit first of course. Oh,  10 people lining up, how nice I discover you when I look up! 欣賞這設計：行人和單車人都各得其所。 Love this design! My Singing: “Sunset” .  The song I always enjoy when I was working in garment factory first month graduated from Chinese University in Hong Kong, 21 years old.

  來到溫哥華可以看見紅葉呀！要離開多倫多，早已打算今年秋天的美不屬於我的。 I left Toronto before the Fall. I persuade myself not to miss the beautiful Fall leaves this year. However, all kinds of beautiful colour when I arrive at Vancouver. I have been reading Ecclesiastes in by following YouTube of  Dr Philip Young, one of my two most respectable teachers, from creation theology perspective, I am being awakened. Different situation in my life are gifts from Heavenly Father. Now, I name the theme of this following journey as “Gift”. 讀傳道書，楊錫鏘醫生牧師引導我們以創造角度看這智慧文學，開眼界。 視我所得的是從天父來的禮物， 是我沒有想過得到的， 是送給我的， 不是我努力得來的， 更不是計劃之中會得到的。 盼望這旅程開始學習，「禮物」成為這旅程的主題。 天父所給我的一份，好好享受吧！ 珀麗灣有個主題公園: 挪亞方舟，而我則題名這次「主題旅程」是「禮物」。 這是早餐時的默想，當見到放在鋅盤要洗的東西，就感到煩惱，生活需要勞動，努力才可以環保，不是單單坐著，默想，看手機，聽喜歡的資訊，答朋友WhatsApp傾吓偈，寫電郵給保育大地120粉絲，紙上談環保！

第一晚來到這個Airbnb，看見洗手間這個「番梘盒」，一個瓷碟，放着兩粒石卵，上面才放肥皂，既環保又雅緻，得了啟迪！ "On the first night I arrived at this Airbnb, I saw this "soap dish" in the bathroom, a ceramic plate with two oval stones on which to place the soap, an elegant and eco-friendly idea. What an inspiration!" Yes, Creation care is to continue to learn from God to be creative!

  October 7,  2024    6am   Getting ready for airport. Going four cities.  Finally I have time to do this. Guess what I am doing? 臨行執拾行李咁忙碌，都要做呢件事，猜猜為什麼？ 估中有獎。😆

  English version below 昨晚是讀書會： 「耶穌的環保學」第八次聚會，沒有失眠，今朝一早心血來潮，去樓下coffee time 試試 early bird breakfast, 帶自己的杯，刀叉，蜜糖，婉拒了包裝的果醬，喼汁，鹽及胡椒。 我不想要 fry potato，她給我多兩塊brown bread, 這年青的女士真好！不愧為我的好鄰居， 哈哈！ 「參加了這讀書組，越來越享受看書。」Paul 說。他第一次參加保育大地120小組活動，這次聚會由他帶領，喜歡他提的問題，我們有空間發表意見和分享生活體驗，又讓我們自由提出問題，一起討論。 「西方國家與消費文化密切聯繫，同意嗎」？ 「什麼叫消費文化？」Ka 問。 你一言、我一語⋯⋯ 「西方人這樣生活方式，全地球的人若都如此，要有三個地球才足夠！」 哎吔吔，地球就得一個，窮困國家就要繼續窮下去… 腦間出現一個美國的大肚腩肥佬、非洲的一個黑黑瘦瘦的兒童… 對「輕盈生活24:1」特別感興趣。作者分享小小的第一步：用尿布 - 拒絕用紙尿片以減少垃圾的經驗，好！！ 原來我們群組的孩子都是用尿布渡過嬰孩階段的。你講、我講、唔講都唔知！ CC120 一位粉絲秘密跟我分享，她兒子下班，就是負責洗尿布的。她為人低調… 「是啊，我的女兒也是如此照顧BB的。 呀，還有一樣：她們處理月經，並不用即棄tampon or 衛生巾，她們用小小的筒放進身體裏面收集了，倒了，清洗，又再用。」Mon 接著分享。 嘩啦啦，長知識啊！ 原來現在的下一代，前衛的下一代，如此關愛大地！ 「Hey Hey,  想起一些情景呀，那次跟Iris 見面，她用再用的紙包着後院摘來的韭菜送給我； 昨天Monica 摘蘋果，那用過很多次的紙袋包著四個送給我，我手觸摸着那些用皺了的雞皮紙袋，好像和大地更加接近，心裏感到溫暖。」 「我家裏的物事，用到不能用才掉到垃圾桶，紙？最後一步是用來墊垃圾桶，濕水的垃圾就可以被它吸了，免得骯髒啦！」Ka 慢慢的，以平常心的聲調說。雖然帶着助聽器參加zoom meeting 有點挑戰。 增加了「紙的再用」各種方法。 「共享」是何等美好的狀態！ 「我要提出問題…」R 靜了多時，開始發聲了。 「作者說： “我並沒有徹底轉成素食者，因為耶穌也不是一個素食者”,  這種思維邏輯有問題吧!」 又講，又猜，我...

                      2024-06-09                      2024-06-08 I said to this sprout: “ I won’t disturb you. I know you are beautiful.”  A quiet friend in the group shared our relationship with the land.  “ If you talk to the plant she will grow more beautifully”. I was awakened. 俾朋友開咗竅，留意跟大地的關係，跟植物溝通，會長得美麗一些的。開始留意我啲大豆芽。呢粒沒有什麼生存機會，竟然出好多根去吸收水份，我對佢話「我盡量唔郁你，好好飲水啦！」 「大豆芽加油，希望它能長出苗！」 “Add oil, dear sprout!” C gave a cheer.           2024-06-08 It was Jun 7, Two days ago we had our first gathering of reading Planetwise. There were few moments I experienced big impact. This is the first one.  I just had the phone call today with little daughter from Vancouver. I told her what happened in the last two days. I did not tell her the name of my friends in the reading group when I shared my story. She responded that those quiet people observe many th...

                     Photo: Andy Chan taken in Ecuador  2024-06-08 「神是愛」耳熟能詳，看見這三個字都沒有感覺。但是今天早上起來，有另外一個體會。就是孫仔起床望着爹哋媽咪，有那種信任，安詳，舒適，共享  togetherness, 然後孫仔 kiss 爹哋媽咪，就是好想表達得到愛的感覺⋯⋯ Too familiar with “God is love”. I have no feeling when looking at these three words. However, this morning I woke up  with different feelings.  A scenario came to me that my 4 year old grandson woke up and looked at his dad and mom. There's a kind of trust, peace, comfort, and shared togetherness, and then the little boy kisses his parents, it's just a strong desire to express the feeling of love..." 很好奇，當我體會天父創造花花草草樹木陽光松鼠雀仔…知多點彼此關係，往後我心靈將會有何改變呢？ "I'm filled with wonder, as I contemplate the beauty of God's creation - the flowers, grass, trees, sunlight, squirrels and sparrows….As I come to understand the intricate web of relationships between them, I can't help but wonder how this newfound awareness will transform my spiritual journey....

  “How do you feel?” I sent out the above picture to my team members when I was making the plastic chain. I was pretty depressed that evening when I looked at them. I must seek some strength or support by talking to my team. I cannot handle this strong emotion by myself. 看見這些塑膠箍住有生命的，感到窒息，我怎能獨自面對這個抑鬱呢？ 「有一種好奇怪的感覺。植物本身很美麗，不斷成長，縱使有東西圍繞住，也都會繼續成長。」另一位時常安靜的組員回應。 “ I have a strange feeling. The plant is beautiful and growing no matter what, even facing restriction, it keeps growing!” She is always quiet but woke me up with few words!   I am awakened! My perspective is totally changed.  Not depressed, but vitality! .

  “Micro-plastic can go into our brain affecting our health”, a research information shard by a quiet member in our ‘creation care 120’ team triggered my painful emotions. 「微塑膠可進入大腦，影響健康。」 Ka 在團隊裏是最靜的一位，傳出這研究資訊結果，使我重訪壓抑心裏好久的塑膠為害，我實在要表達了！ Though I have no artmaking training background at all, I want to express this emotion.  最初將意念提出，But I am shy! 「yc有一顆童心, 出嘅作品一定好真！」S said.  “ you have a child like heart. Your artwork will be authentic.” 團隊鼓勵. So I draft the  initial thought . I went to the exhibition of OCAD U graduates. I learnt that artwork can be  on-going meditation . Big thanks to Piget Bowen. Next day I was  inspired  by an indigenous artist, Alexis Nanibush-Pamajewong.  From the very beginning, my idea of this artwork is that it has to be a collective effort. I want to express that this cannot be done alone. Creation care has to be done  together . True, When we  care for one another , More ideas, energy and strength emerges. It r...

 頸背痛！ Neck pain after cutting plastic and making them into chains for 20 minutes, I was not aware my neck had already complained for a while when I was focusing. I had to look for my brush in order to paint the varnish on the “planet”, left lower back pain! Apply pain oilment and hot red bean bag. Give my body a break.  We cannot extract too much resources from the planet. Give her a break! 搽活絡油於患處，微波爐2分鐘弄熱紅豆袋，敷在患處上面，背向天花板平躺，休息10 分鐘。 Sitting down to do visual art is not for me, for sure. That‘s why 20 years ago I started to learn Playback Theatre. I move my body while doing creative art.

  要做到這個地球的模型，上星期，吹脹一個氣球，將廢紙撕成大約兩吋乘半吋，一張一張貼上氣球，兩至三層厚，過兩天就乾了。 敲落去，Dock Dock 聲，說不出的喜悅！ Such a joy, when hearing this sound! 今天要將地球幾個 continents 畫上去, 搜索思量，終於用這個方法… 到傍晚才發現自己的頸部疲倦，下午想休息20分鐘，竟然起來已經睡了一個半小時！ Oh, neck pain! 再看這幅相，是戴着95歲的伯母上星期織好的，感覺自己真的像一個藝術家，哈哈，真高興！ Wearing the hat knit by 95-year-old auntie… Ha, I look like an artist! But at the back of my mind, 專注默想完回到生活，進午膳，期待這個藝術品不是我個人的作品，是一個集體造成的，各人都有不同的體驗過程… With collective work, each has different experience. 「 我考慮試一下，只用左手來發豆芽，我從未發過，現在還要用一隻手來發？簡直是傻了，看看其心路歷程，由一開始認為是困難的，到把這事看為對自已心態的挑戰，能力的挑戰，能否做得到？等著瞧！」她說。 “ I would love to know your journey, my dear, bean sprout with one hand!”

  Art work draft continues. In English, it is chain instead of string. Imagining the plastic chains and locks… Before lunch, I called her because she had fractured her right shoulder last month. She could only use her left hand. I invited her to join this beans sprouting, which she had not tried at all. Both of us put our heads together. How can  she sprout with one hand?  How large the container? No plastic please. It should not be too heavy. A clothe with little holes to let the water out…All can be done with one hand. The unpreferred hand! 一個人右手受傷不能用，怎樣用左手發豆芽呢？ 她正在做實驗。 I am so energized after talking with her. I meditate with Animalia (五禽之戲)，I had a mindful lunch. Yum helped me to buy 5 kg of Ontario grown organic yellow beans. Soaked two cups for a day, steamed for an hour, then stewed with maple syrup and soya sauce (Maggi, My mother-in-law’s favourite from Vietnam). Yummy lunch… Additional idea of the artwork comes up. The globe is covered by plastic chains. 地球被塑膠鎖鏈...

  To continue the draft of my artwork for May 30 symposium. The whole planet inside is full of plastics. The developing  countries are  bearing heavy burdens, and so the planet is collapsing to the other side. Different kinds of beans sprout are surrounding the planet. These sprouts are collective works of those who would like to contribute a bit to take care of the Earth. These people include those who are retired, busy at work, in schools, intergeneration, people with disability, men and women… 這些不同的豆芽是關心地球，想獻一分力量，學習保護環境的人合作，包括長者、少年人、殘障人士、工作忙碌的，退休的、男的女的… World map for me is Pacific Ocean in the center, Asia, India, Africa, catch my eyes, and North America is small. 這部份就是傾斜的地球。

  May 1,  2024 OCAD U 藝術學院的畢業生展覽，這個吸引了我，站在那裏我很舒服。 I told her, “ so comfy standing in this corner!” “ I do meditation when I’m doing my artwork.” She replied, with sweet smile, looking up to me, while holding that needle with dark green thread working on her “landscape”. 對我是一個啟迪。剛才拿起掃把，一個星期都不掃地一次，前天才掃了塵，因為聽了這位藝術家同學的分享，我就實踐一邊掃地，一邊默想！ Attended 8 weeks training with hubby at North York Central Hospital MBSR led by psychiatrist was an inspiration for me. Last week, reading Loyola House newsletter, learned the name of Cynthia Bourgeault, retreat leader, I love to go back to the awareness of centring prayer… 期待逐漸實踐生活，洗碗、掃地、煮飯、發豆芽、練習五禽之戲…是默想的藝術品創作當中… 哈哈，文藝青年呀！（我知道，老公看完呢一篇，一定會講呢句說話 😝） OMG! Finished laundry last night. The whole bed is full of dry clothes, winter pants, towels large and small, bed sheets, pillowcases…I usually keep them for three weeks in the laundry basket…This chore is no fun AT ALL! Chillax… When will I start this meditation artwork with all these textiles on my bed...

  2024-05-01 「救救地球」or “ Big hug” 1st week art work draft 草稿如何做這藝術品，可以在30號這個月展出。救救地球就是那個內容，有人物、松鼠、其他動物、植物一起努力將殘破的地球、哭泣的地球，向下墮的地球推上去。 Oh no, The planet is falling, that human being animals all together to save the world!  Really? 但是今天早上出現一個畫面，就是我們一起給地球一個大擁抱，Big hugs to the planet.  地球需要我們挽救嗎？我們把它如此破壞，我們能夠挽救她嗎？現在已經到達一個地步無可救藥。 葉文潔*要把那制按下去，邀請地球以外的勢力進來地球，征服地球。就是相信人類不能再可以相信了，已經無可救藥了。 不過我每天在外面仍然感受陽光美好，雀仔在唱歌，小樹葉慢慢長出來了，青草仍然長出來又有鮮花，各種的樹，我… I want to give the planet a  big hug!  It’s so beautiful out there! 是矛盾。 我想擁抱的是美麗的自然界，我所厭惡的是塑膠、化石燃料、污染、人類貪方便與及我的無能。 I want to hug the beautiful nature. I hate the plastics, fossil fuel, pollution, human greediness and my helplessness. —————— *「三體」主角 Three Body problem main character 

           Memoir by Ting-China Wang:  The Cloud Yesterday  2024-04-14 昨天的雲 我充滿矛盾。 我放下這本書，不能禁得住腳步，必須外出。 今天太陽實在可愛， 16度C, 下午五時都是陽光普照，既柔和，又溫暖。外出走走，嫩芽爆出小葉，一隻Robin 在路旁草地好安靜，對不起，我走近又嚇了你一跳！ 將黃色風褸除掉，又將彩色毛衣除掉，走到Drewry大草地，沒有人,  你想我會做什麼呢？ 躺在草地，帶着太陽鏡望着無瑕疵藍色的天空，白雲順着微風慢慢散開，噢，原來月亮彎彎已經在天空了！ 在路上走着的時候，思想着明年保育大地120可以教一個課程，四月至六月，每星期鼓勵學生自己到外面走走，寫札記，寫下對上帝創造的感受… 冷不提防有一個人拖着一隻大黑狗走逝我旁，面似賴皮狗，幸有狗鏈拉著，主人的皮膚跟牠一樣顏色，也高大，主人走來問我：”Do you fear dog?” I don’t know how to reply him. Of course I don’t want the dog running around coming close or sniff me, he is not Kobe, not Ria, my daughters’ dogs. I don’t know this dog . How do I know if it is a risk. I asked him “are you going to release the leash?” “ Yes, that’s why I have to ask you first, if you’re not fear of it, I can let him run around on the whole lawn”. “I will leave in five minutes.” I replied to him. So he was still holding the dog with the leash on. During that five minutes I look at the clouds, the sky, I asked myself....

 St Clair station  David Balfour Park ravine 阿女一齊行 行下    停下        忽然不作聲            只看 · 只聽 然後 「你可以行咁快？」她驚訝 原來已行了 1.5 小時   「溫哥華沒有這樣美的秋天」     「搬返嚟…」  「考慮五年吧。」      「好， Take it easy!」

  Prince Edward Garden 公共交通 坐地鐵 坐巴士 即抵達 溫暖陽光 秋風   葉綠      葉黃         葉紅             葉飄至溪旁                  溪水奏出小調                         閉上眼 心裏藏